Sophomore Slump

I never thought that I would be one who had anxiety attacks and mental issues in my life as bad as they are. It started during the summer when my ex-girlfriend toyed with me for almost the entire summer and at the end of it, decided to break up with me thinking I didn't love her and I put her through so much and that I would never find someone who would love me and that I'll be miserable for a long tim. Soon after that, my dad's mother and sister past away in late August. Going into my sophomore year, I wasn't sure that I'd make it. I had serveral anxiety attacks that made me question what I was doing and if I'll ever make something of myself. The pressure of coming from a family and being the first one to go to college really wears on my mind and sometimes I thought of it as too much pressure. i didn't want this. Then my brother past in October. His passing really hit me and till now its still hard to move on. I did in fact feel lost without his guidance and wanted to dropout of college and disappear because my mind couldn't take his passing. It still can't. It's taken a while now to make peace with what has happened and there are still times where I have really bad anxiety and question my whole life, and it kinda depresses me a little. So you could say my mental health isn't really where it should be, but thankfully I have great friends at IC, a girlfriend, and family I can go to for support.